29 7 / 2014
27 7 / 2014
2 more weeks living out of plastic, then another thorough washing of everything i own, then i can get the hell out of this place and pray to every god that i dont bring any of these bedbugs with me. exterminator is administrating first treatment tomorrow, but that wont kill everything, and i’m leaving before the 2nd so i’m stuck with these fuckers.
25 7 / 2014
bedbugs may sound like a theoretically not fun idea, but until you live with them, i dont know if its capable to fully understand the horror. my life is turning upside down and i’m supposed to move in like 3 weeks. i get bit every night. all my stuff is washed and in bags, which takes hours of time and lots of money. I am paranoid and delusional and not freaking sleeping. there are a lot of articles about the psychological effects of bedbugs and i am experiencing all of them- anxiety and bed bugs do not mix. this is my night mare. first treatment is monday, and then i move- before the 2nd treatment.meaning i have to be absurdly careful not to spread bedbugs to my new place, but will probably spend the next year of my life searching for them and expecting them to crop up at any point.
23 7 / 2014
i am not psychologically strong enough to deal with bedbugs. it’s been almost a week since I confirmed having them, and still no word on an exterminator. I am supposed to stay on the mattress to prevent their spread throughout the house, but i haven’t been sleeping at all knowing there are bugs crawling around. all of my stuff is in plastic bags and piled up and its so chaotic and i dont feel comfortable in my own home anymore. I am about to abandon ship with the few freshly washed and sealed clothes I have and stay at a friend’s place until I move out in 3 weeks, when i will come back for the rest of my shit (which is all sealed up and can’t spread the bugs), and just put it in storage for a year until the fuckers die. sure, that’ll infest the rest of the apartment, but what do i care.
21 7 / 2014
The amount of questions Bastille asks in their songs really stresses me out
are you gonna age with grace? do you like the person you’ve become? can you fill the silence? how am i gonna be an optimist? how am i gonna get myself home?
like idk dan you figure it out